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i will not talk about the incubus concert. i will not talk about anything about that day. ok, moving on... ang masasabi ko lang, nakita ko si heart. she's pretty hot. hehe. but she has this ugly alphamale guy with her. holding hands pa. tsktsk. john prats nalang! hehe!

arch and i hung out in my house sat morning. as usual, we ate A LOT and watched monster's ball. it was a pretty nice movie, although i think the director has an affinity for butt canoodling... hahaha. eeeewww! we left the house at around 6 for donna's house. may surprise party for her, and in fairness, na surprise tlga sha. hehe. naiyak pa nga ata eh! YAY! first time ata na may nasurprise tlaga sa surprise party. haha! daming food and may mudslide. yay, my happiness. sarap ng ginawa ni eix, parang mudslide shake. panalo... when me, mel and arch left na, mejo tipsy na kami... well, except for arch kasi ayaw nya ng hard. beer lang katapat eh. hehe.

then we went to sib's party in fox square. lasingan. hehe. ranting about stuff... astig kwento ni mich about brandon... sobrang war din pala dun sa 2k section. she's very violent in gigs. haha. super lapit nila, and now i'm feeling bad all over again. ok, let's not talk about incubus na. hehe. sib's partey was fun. alcohol is good. yay. i think everyone was pretty much drunk...

i uploaded new pics from donna's and sib's party. go look. sa peechures link. hehe.

i have to go to mass. crap. tapos chem lab finals... haay...

I COULD'VE GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO DIE RIGHT NOW! when i listened to the broadcast in NU, i thought i heard mich dulce there, so i texted her to ask if she was there! apparantly, she wasn't, but if only i texted her sooner and if only she got to ask quark sooner, we could've gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!! brandoooooon... i loff you!!! i'll go to war tom for you! i'm turning into such a groupie, but i don't care! aaaahhhhh! brandon's gf carolyn murphy is such a hottie. they're so meant for each other... *tear*

ok... i think i'm pretty much subdued na... hehe. i let all the brandon energy out. i went to the french embassy kanina. bon jour! bonjour! YUN LANG ALAM KO! hehe. i'll just look stupid smiling at french people when they're talking to me. ack. oh well. hehe. i hope melro's sister's friend (layo ah. ehe) will take us to paris flea markets! astig yun.

there's something wrong with my hair! it attracts fruit flies! and for the record, I DO SHAMPOO DAILY, thank you very much! hehe. tama na mga hirit! i think it's the red dye. crap. hassle tuloy tumambay sa bench, daming flies eh. hehe. i feel like pigpen in the peanuts comic strip! haha. imsuchaloser! woohoo!

i drank again! 1st time since the start of the month... i wasn't supposed to drink the whole month, but it's sooo hard! hehe! it's ok, i compensated for it naman by going to the gym! haha! it's all sib and conrad's fault... or maybe not.

i've had some idle time lately, and i read something that i wrote in my psuedo-diary from way back when... i've grown a lot since then (i hope), but what i wrote made some kind of sense, at least in understanding other people.

people stay in limbo, in ambiguity, because they always want something more. when nothing's sure, you can always leave easily to get on with the new things or experiences or people you want. you're looking for something that's not real because you're scared of the fact that in reality, you'd have to decide. and a decision is something definite. concrete, and can't be unbound. and how can you get something more when you're already bound by something?

you want everything, that's why you want nothing.

you shun anything that's definite because you think deep within that ambiguity is safer than a decision, than a commitment, than something irrefutable and painstakingly true.

and if you're a selfish person, someone who wants everything and tries to get everything she wants, you wish to remain in the dark. in the ambiguous certainty that assures you that you can still get anything. and as long as you don't learn that you can't get everything in life, as long as you don't stop being self-centered; you'll never want to decide, to commit, to love and to live.

and you'll remain stuck in your sad cycle of ambiguity.

tignan natin ang

"tignan natin"

alanganin ang sigurado

sigurado and alanganin

i uploaded more pics in the PEECHURES link. go and click, go and click!

i'm still at home and i haven't studied for my developmental psych class at 3... i'm so dead! but instead of studying, i'm blogging. i'm stupid like that. yeh. i should've studied last night, but i watched the incubus kick-off partey instead. mel and i wanted to win meet and greet passes! wah! this freshie from our school won this singing contest, and now she gets to be with brandon boyd! I LOFF YOU BRANDON BOYD! I'M WILLING TO HAVE A BBBF FOR YOU! heehee. if you don't know what a BBBF is, don't find out na. rozie aka "cory" sang version and won jag stuff. haha. the djs didn't know that it was an incubus song. hahaha. siguro nalabuan din sila when sina miggy performed it. (with codigo) hehe.
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i just reeeeaaaaaally hope incubus will really go to the after party. i sooooo want to see brandon boyd and be in the same room that he is. hahaha. creepy!

look at that... brandon drew this for me for a tattoo idea. ain't he the sweetest? haha.